I have been thinking a lot lately as February approaches. February for me brings a lot of sadness and anxiety. February is Jordan's birthday, my grandmother died the day after, Kinsley died on February 14th. February holds a lot of emotions and memories. Good ones too, I got engaged on Jordan's 30th birthday, Ava was born in February. The great memories and celebrations, meet sadness and some memories that I consider nightmares. As a read the comments on my blog or social m

I have wanted to write for some time now, however I can barely speak. My words or thoughts get all jumbled and nothing I say sometimes...

This song is off of Taylor Swift's newest album, it seems to always come on when I need to hear it, almost like an anthem, reminding me...

I woke up to the sound of the shower running, just like every other morning. My husband getting ready for work and me in the bed...

We are about to come up on Kinsley’s 3rd anniversary of her death. I often feel as if people wonder how we are doing, how I am doing, how...

You ever wake up one day and look at your life and think, “how in the hell did I get here? Whose life am I living? or Who did I piss off...

Some days are just hard. No matter how strong you are, how inspiring you set out to be, we are all humans and vulnerable. At 3:10 P.M....

I am a published author! What?!?! Those words are still shocking to me. As we approach the 2nd anniversary of Kinsley's Day, I wanted to...

For Kinsley, Christmas was a huge deal. She loved Christmas and spending time with family. For those of you that know her, you know the...

I had so many people text or say we were thinking of you and your family on Christmas. I used to always hear that the holidays are the...

I was mindlessly scrolling through social media, as I usually spend so much of my time doing and I came across a quote that resonated...

It’s been 10 months since I’ve heard her voice, kissed her face or loved on her and each day I feel uneasy, yearning for those things,...

I love being a mom. In fact, I can remember when I was a little girl, the two things I wanted to be when I grew up was a mom and a...

It has been a minute since my last writing because I haven’t had much to say. We passed the two-month anniversary of Kinsley’s death on...

Yesterday was Easter, the first holiday without Kinsley. It was a weird Easter, given the times we are in, even with Kinsley it wouldn’t...

The other day I decided I was going to get showered and dressed, like put on make-up, fix my hair, get out of sweats, the look good, feel...

Each morning since Valentine’s Day, I wake up, put on my glasses, look at my phone and I begin the day overwhelmed with emotions as look...

This took me a while to compose because I couldn’t find the right words to truly express our gratitude. While the outcome of Kinsley’s...

2020 can go f$@*-itself. I am over it completely, first we lost our healthy incredible daughter on Valentine’s Day from illness and now...

Yesterday marked one month without our girl. It was a day filled with all kinds of emotions. I went from crying one second, to being...